Your tribe is not a group of people just like you, it is a group of people that compliment each other, a group of people whose strengths & weaknesses differ so much from each other, that together, you become one.
As I have mentioned in previous posts I am a co-admin for my local Pagan community group and with that I have helped create some generalised information and ritual documents to help out those that may not be experienced or who may just need a little help with ideas on creating their own.
I have been given permission to share these mini essays. I have found in helping create these little essays that I am also learning some valuable information that I would not normally have learnt had I not been given the role of co-admin. For that I am extremely grateful for the opportunity to grow within myself and, like Odin, to gain knowledge from others.
“Gimme fuel, gimme fire, gimme that which I desire” ~ Metallica
May Day? But it’s October you say. May Day comes from the celebration being held on 1st May in the Northern Hemisphere. There are some in the Southern Hemisphere that refer to the celebration as November Day.
You may have seen all the references and pretties on the internet for Samhain/Halloween and that is because in the northern hemisphere they are in Autumn. Beltane is a Spring festival. November is the final month of spring and summer is creeping around the corner, although here in the tropics, we have already begun feeling the humidity rise (or was that just the heat from our recent Supermoon in Aries). The days now will become more humid, the summer rains are nearly upon us, in the southern states daylight savings has commenced as has the dry and dusty heat.
Although the seasons are mirrored to those in the north, Beltane is still a highly charged, spiritual event. The veil thins just as it does during Samhain with some saying that the thinning is even more prominent at this time. This will be totally up to you whether you feel one is more spiritual than the other.
Winter has definitely left us by now and we have new life all around us. Ostara brought with her the new buds and Beltane brings the lush full foliage of nature. Where Samhain is focused around letting go of the past, death & crossing over, Beltane is about life, love, living & rebirth. Siebog & Ziva (Slavic) are often honoured at this time during Handfasting festivals. Handfasting is very popular this time of year as love & marriage are in the air, the Gods & Goddesses are doing it so why don’t we. It is said that babies born from a Beltane union hold very special powers. Although some prefer to keep May Day exclusively for the handfasting of the God & Goddess only, seeing it as a sacred act reserved for the sacred unions of Kings & Queens.
Beltane translates to ‘bright fire’ and fire is used not just as a celebration tool but as a sacred element in the May Day ritual. Fire was honoured for its part in the survival of the darkest period of the year. Sorry for those that thought Aries leaving was going to cool things down again. Baelfires were lit with a wide walkway between them and cattle were herded through to cleanse them and bring good fortune for the coming seasons.
Jumping the fire (a small one obviously) is another one of the many ritual activities preformed during the festivities, as is CONSENSUAL sex. Come on, love, marriage than consummating the marriage with sex. Although plain simple courtship was also another celebrated rite of passage for those too young to marry.
Walpurgisnacht (German), Hexxennacht (Dutch) can be translated to Witch’s Night and was a celebration held atop a high mountain in Germany. May Day is celebrated in a variety of countries, all with their own history behind the day (northern hemisphere).
The Warrior God, in his masculine form has now reached his sexual peak and is ready to become the father and spread his fertility across the lands. The Goddess is now entering her Mother phase and together they spend this time frolicking happily until the seed is planted. When two become one.
List of just some of the fertility/love Gods:
Freyr, Odin, Cernunnos, Siebog, Heryshaf, Min, Aramazd, Ba’al, Fufluns, Äkräs, Aphroditus, Dionysus, Eros, Phanes, Priapus (the Greeks apparently couldn’t get enough of the fertility gods), Phallic Saints, Lono, Chandra, Wollunqua, Gedi, Innus.
List of just some of the fertility/love Goddesses:
I also came across a few Roman deities whose sole act is to consummate the marriage between the bride and groom.
Prema, goddess who holds the bride down on the bed
Subigus, the god who subdues the bride to the husband’s will
Pertuda, goddess who enables penetration
Domidicus, the god who leads the bride home
Domitius, the god who installs the bride
Jugatinus, the god who joins the pair in marriage
Virginiensis, the goddess who unties the girdle of the bride
Manturna, the goddess who kept the bride at home.
Ok, enough of the name dropping. May Poles are a symbol of the Gods manhood and the flowers represent the Goddess. Apple and pear blossoms make great circlets for the young women to adorn their heads. Flowers from the Hawthorn bush were hung about doorways and windows to ward off evil for the season.
Many Pagans, in ancient times, left votive offerings at pools, wells, fountains and springs. Commune with the spirit that resides in the water, leave a coin or flower in exchange for some water. You could also say something like:
“With grateful thanks I leave this gift;
For the Guardian of the Well (or spring etc),
For the water I have taken,
May it aid me in my sacred rite.”
N.B: I am sorry, but I found this a while ago and have no idea where, so I am unable to give credit to the author.
Here, November is a month to enjoy blossoms, they are in abundance (my streets are lined with yellow wattle blossoms right now). Escape to the cool rainforests that surround us and look out for some landwights, brownies or faeries. Dance at every chance you can and celebrate the new life that is around you. Live, love and immerse yourself in the now. Remember that you will probably still feel the energy from the previous full moon in Aries and we have another supermoon in November. Recharge as often as you can. Spend time at a local creek, or at the beach, ground yourself in preparation for the coming months.
* Beltane is a Fire Festival and we live in Australia at a period when bushfires can occur. Please be responsible in any fire use.
* Remember that you are the Priestess/Priest/Gothi/Gythia of your own rituals. You create them how YOU feel they should go. There is no right or wrong way to follow YOUR path, only what feels right or not-so-right. It is fun to gather together with a few other like-minded souls and recreate the tradition of the God & Goddess, but never do anything that you feel uncomfortable with. Remember that it must always be CONSENSUAL and if you do engage in consensual sex, make sure you practice safe sex.
This will be my final write-up for the Pagan Spiral as I am relocating to Victoria in early January and will be unable to get Litha out for you. Over the last 6 months, the admins, have ensured that each piece that we wrote contained as many references as possible, even some that we did not end up using. I suggest that you go through the lists and research for your own history and ritual for Litha. Your path is all about you growing and learning, so please do not hold yourself back.
Many blessings and much prosperity for the coming season.
With Walpurgis Night (Beltane) nearly upon us here in the Southern Hemisphere I am wondering how many others are feeling ‘different’.
Not different in a bad way but like there is fire within, like the veil has already began to slip away and we are now walking side by side with the other side.
I know the Northern parts of the world are about to celebrate Samhain so they would be feeling this energy, or vibration too. I know within myself I have felt an awakening over the last month. My spirituality has taken a shift to a higher level.
Over the years I had let myself become stuck in society, I let bad relationships control and direct where my life went. I had forgotten who I was and what I was. I had also become a mother which I had forced myself to push my true self inside so deep that I thought I had lost me forever.
This last year has given me the strength and determination to bring myself back to the surface and well this new me is fucking awesome. I have never felt so alive before. I am learning to let go of the past that was holding me back, no not back, down.
I had let myself become the victim of being the survivor. Pretended to be Superwoman when what I should have been is me. Where is all of this new fire coming from? I have known for a long time but have, for no known reason, kept it hidden.
I moved house in February and that is when it all started, well it started Dec, but the fire started in February. It was an unusual heatwave right at the time I was moving (see… fire) and I started seeing strange things, yes, yes, I know now they were signs, and pretty damn obvious ones too, that I just kept blowing them off as other signs.
I have always been Thor’s girl, not in the God-spouse sense, more like he was always there when I needed him (or thought I needed him), like a big brother would be. Very platonic relationship, although he did ‘claim’ me a few times when I had attempted to wander to another deity.
Maybe that is why I had not considered another male trying to reach out to me. Thor would have surely ‘claimed’ me again if that was the case right, right?
Maybe it was Skadi, I was yearning for the cold so badly, because there was so much fire in my life. Orange had become a favourite colour along side my ever trusty green. So I began researching her.
Elen of the Ways come through in my research after a dream of an Antlered Goddess within the forest. Deers and Stags were everywhere in my otherworldly life. There was a shift coming, you could feel it, my witchy friends had begun feeling it emanating from me for a while too.
Whilst on holiday (yes I will get to Day 2 soon I promise), I had a change cone over me so obvious, so strongly, so effortlessly, so… divinely… that I knew I needed to embrace what ever was coming. To just let it flow, from me and for me to just let myself flow with it. What ever it was…
I found myself grounding a lot with
nature and water… so much water, I couldn’t get enough water it was ridiculous, not just physically but I needed to keep hydrated as I felt myself burning alive other wise. See… Fire… so much fire.
I had a few otherworldly experiences whilst away that I enjoyed and will keep to myself but I will share the most awakening experience, almost like a life epiphany experience. I was at the beach on the way back home from our trip, it was my cousin, myself and our kids. I was not going into the water, until I was sitting there and I felt a pull… I had to go and stand in the water… but I needed to bury my feet in the sand too… See water and grounding, always grounding.
I stood there, the waves (only small) washing back and forth around my legs… there was no more pull towards the ocean… only a desperate need for stillness… How the Hel are you meant to stand still in the waves? But I did, I was so still, so steadfast, I could see the water coming and going in slow motion, I could feel every single grain of sand surround my legs then whittle away as the waves returned to the deep once more. I could smell the salt in my nose, I could feel the sticky salt air in my pores, I could feel the earth slowly rotating… What… Yes… the earth, Jord, Gaia, Mother… I could feel her, I was her, she was me.
I know it sounds absurd to those that are not spiritually connected to nature. But it happened, and it happened to me. It made me realise how small I am in the universe, yet how gigantically huge I am in the scheme of life. It was a true awakening, I fell in love all over again to my spirituality, to me, to life.
Then when I got home and relaxed, I could still feel the fire within, like a volcano, with its lava bubbling, just waiting to explode. Well the volcano did erupt. It erupted with such gusto that it felt like I have been reborn.
I was recouping after a great weekend catchup with one of my best friends, scrawling through Facebook when I came across a photo of a candle. (I am writing this on my mobile so will add links and photos later). It was a candle with an image of Freyr, standing in a forest with antlers on his head. There it was, there HE was, it was like a slap across the face… or arse in my case 😉 … This last 9 months has been about Freyr trying to connect, and with Thor’s permission obviously.
I needed to become a woman again, I needed to earn the fire within, I needed to earn the desire for life. Well I have, I have done the hard yards, and I have reached he pinnacle of my spiritual puberty to become the woman I am looking forward to releasing.
This does not mean I am letting go of my big brother, no, this just means my big brother has let go of my hand. He has shared my last teen dance with me and is now handing me over to the next stage of my spirituality. To experience life with new eyes and a new dedication to all that is.
This brings me back to the start of this post about the energy around us at the moment. There is a shift in the spiritual plane, an energy shift that has occurred. Is it just me or is it all? Are you feeling the fire or are you feeling another vibration all together? Is it just this time of year or is there a shift happening, a stirring, a change, an otherworldly primal shift in the universe itself!
Let me know my fabulous crazies… or is it just me, going… well crazy?
So most people deal with it fairly well. Others not so well. I am in the middle. However, I only need water and nature as my medicine.
Those moments when the darkness closes in and you feel like you are suffocating. Well I have just had a low point. I feel like I am trying to climb back up but each time I feel like the walls are no longer craggy rocks that I can grip but are smoothing themselves out.
It is all about taking on too much it too short a timeframe for me. It is a bad habit. I cut all my hair off (for a good reason and I don’t regret it) but I feel naked without it. It had become my mask, my helmet and my shield and I had forgotten how much I relied on it and how much I hid behind it. I feel like I am in the middle of a battlefield vulnerable, naked and lost without my armour or weapons.
It will take some adjusting and it will take time for me to learn that I don’t need that helmet or that shield to fight my battles. Nor do I need to hide behind an invisible mask. I just need to stop, reflect, reset and stop trying to fix the entire world at once.
This journey is certainly harder than I first expected but that is only because I had set myself up with a mammoth task and did not take into account my incessant need to critically analyse and reflect on everything I read. That alone takes time and thought and I had not scheduled that part into my journey.
I have started to dream again… Yes everybody dreams, but it has been years since I was able to go to bed, ask a question of the universe and then dream the answer. It is what this journey is all about. To find my inner witch so to speak. It will take time, reflection, patience and as always trial and error.
I had a particularly bad day last week, I wanted to hid under a rock that was to heavy for me to hold… I was falling, feeling overwhelmed with life. So I went to my dear friend’s house. She is a dragon fae’riy, to me anyway, whether you believe or not. That is how I see her energy: fierce, warm, light, fun and protective. I needed grounding, to get my feet into the earth, to reset.
What better way to reset than to take a walk to the beach in the rain…
I love the rain. I love the look of it, the smell of it, the feel of it and I am respectful of its power to destroy and to bring new life.
That day was exactly the reset I needed. I collected a jar of sand, I found part of a skull that I took home with me.
I also took some photos of the sand that was so reflective, it sparkled and was a delightful silver and it made me think of mermaid scales. Of the remnants of the magic that washed off the mermaid scales, just as our dry, dead skin cells fall of us.
We sat and watched the soft rain surround us, the island in the distance swallowed up by the mist. I am kicking myself for missing the opportunity to capture that and capturing a photo of a section of rocks on the right. One of the rocks looked like a boar or a horse trying to climb out of the water. Instead I just enjoyed the nature around me, the feeling of calm and the feeling of safety.
At least I have now started to find areas that I do not wish to spend too much time on. I am learning to slow down and that it is okay to take my time. I don’t need to give myself a time limit on learning about life. After all, it is my journey and I am really just letting the universe, my ancestors and the Gods guide me. So I am going to try to let them guide me while learning to do it patiently…