Explain your intentions…

Well it turns out you do need to explain yourself to the universe…

My 2017 words of intention were Disconnect & Expand. Simple enough right? Wrong!

I meant Disconnect from social media not people & I meant Expand my knowledge not my body!

You really do need to explain things so the universe doesn’t twist your words.

This time I wrote a list explaining what my intentions were, in detail.

Please remember there is a difference between resolutions & intentions. Resolutions have an end, Intentions leave room for you to outshine your goals.

I know 2018 will be another rollercoaster year for most but this time you will have more control.

So HAPPY NEW YEAR my Crazies form your one & only, Southern Cross Heathen xxx

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Find your tribe not your twin!

Your tribe is not a group of people just like you, it is a group of people that compliment each other, a group of people whose strengths & weaknesses differ so much from each other, that together, you become one.

Find your tribe not your twin.

SouthernCrossHeathen

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Beltane/Walpurgis/May Day

As I have mentioned in previous posts I am a co-admin for my local Pagan community group and with that I have helped create some generalised information and ritual documents to help out those that may not be experienced or who may just need a little help with ideas on creating their own.

I have been given permission to share these mini essays.  I have found in helping create these little essays that I am also learning some valuable information that I would not normally have learnt had I not been given the role of co-admin.  For that I am extremely grateful for the opportunity to grow within myself and, like Odin, to gain knowledge from others.

“Gimme fuel, gimme fire, gimme that which I desire” ~ Metallica

May Day? But it’s October you say.  May Day comes from the celebration being held on 1st May in the Northern Hemisphere.  There are some in the Southern Hemisphere that refer to the celebration as November Day. 14101882_10153891743846395_1060310016_n

You may have seen all the references and pretties on the internet for Samhain/Halloween and that is because in the northern hemisphere they are in Autumn.  Beltane is a Spring festival.  November is the final month of spring and summer is creeping around the corner, although here in the tropics, we have already begun feeling the humidity rise (or was that just the heat from our recent Supermoon in Aries).  The days now will become more humid, the summer rains are nearly upon us, in the southern states daylight savings has commenced as has the dry and dusty heat.

Although the seasons are mirrored to those in the north, Beltane is still a highly charged, spiritual event.  The veil thins just as it does during Samhain with some saying that the thinning is even more prominent at this time.  This will be totally up to you whether you feel one is more spiritual than the other.

Winter has definitely left us by now and we have new life all around us.  Ostara brought with her the new buds and Beltane brings the lush full foliage of nature.  Where Samhain is focused around letting go of the past, death & crossing over, Beltane is about life, love, living & rebirth.  Siebog & Ziva (Slavic) are often honoured at this time during Handfasting festivals.  Handfasting is very popular this time of year as love & marriage are in the air, the Gods & Goddesses are doing it so why don’t we.  It is said that babies born from a Beltane union hold very special powers.  Although some prefer to keep May Day exclusively for the handfasting of the God & Goddess only, seeing it as a sacred act reserved for the sacred unions of Kings & Queens.

Beltane translates to ‘bright fire’ and fire is used not just as a celebration tool but as a sacred element in the May Day ritual.  Fire was honoured for its part in the survival of the darkest period of the year.  Sorry for those that thought Aries leaving was going to cool things down again.  Baelfires were lit with a wide walkway between them and cattle were herded through to cleanse them and bring good fortune for the coming seasons.

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Jumping the fire (a small one obviously) is another one of the many ritual activities preformed during the festivities, as is CONSENSUAL sex.  Come on, love, marriage than consummating the marriage with sex.  Although plain simple courtship was also another celebrated rite of passage for those too young to marry.

Walpurgisnacht (German), Hexxennacht (Dutch) can be translated to Witch’s Night and was a celebration held atop a high mountain in Germany.  May Day is celebrated in a variety of countries, all with their own history behind the day (northern hemisphere).

The Warrior God, in his masculine form has now reached his sexual peak and is ready to become the father and spread his fertility across the lands.  The Goddess is now entering her Mother phase and together they spend this time frolicking happily until the seed is planted.  When two become one.

List of just some of the fertility/love Gods:

Freyr, Odin, Cernunnos, Siebog, Heryshaf, Min, Aramazd, Ba’al, Fufluns, Äkräs, Aphroditus, Dionysus, Eros, Phanes, Priapus (the Greeks apparently couldn’t get enough of the fertility gods), Phallic Saints, Lono, Chandra, Wollunqua, Gedi, Innus.

List of just some of the fertility/love Goddesses:

Asase Ya, Ala, Heget, Isis, Renenutet, Tawaret, Allāt, Anahit, Tanit, Sowathara, Brigid, Damara, Damona, Turan, Rauni, Nerthus, Freyja, Frigga, Sif, Sjöfn, Gefjon, Lofn, Parvati, Aphrodite, Artemis, Cybele, Demeter, Gaia, Hera, Anjea, Akna, Ceres, Feronia, Bona Dea, Juno, Terra, Venus.

I also came across a few Roman deities whose sole act is to consummate the marriage between the bride and groom.

  • Prema, goddess who holds the bride down on the bed
  • Subigus, the god who subdues the bride to the husband’s will
  • Pertuda, goddess who enables penetration
  • Domidicus, the god who leads the bride home
  • Domitius, the god who installs the bride
  • Jugatinus, the god who joins the pair in marriage
  • Virginiensis, the goddess who unties the girdle of the bride
  • Manturna, the goddess who kept the bride at home.

Ok, enough of the name dropping.  May Poles are a symbol of the Gods manhood and the flowers represent the Goddess. Apple and pear blossoms make great circlets for the young women to adorn their heads.  Flowers from the Hawthorn bush were hung about doorways and windows to ward off evil for the season.

Many Pagans, in ancient times, left votive offerings at pools, wells, fountains and springs.  Commune with the spirit that resides in the water, leave a coin or flower in exchange for some water.  You could also say something like:

“With grateful thanks I leave this gift;

For the Guardian of the Well (or spring etc),

For the water I have taken,

May it aid me in my sacred rite.”

N.B: I am sorry, but I found this a while ago and have no idea where, so I am unable to give credit to the author.

wattleHere, November is a month to enjoy blossoms, they are in abundance (my streets are lined with yellow wattle blossoms right now).  Escape to the cool rainforests that surround us and look out for some landwights, brownies or faeries.  Dance at every chance you can and celebrate the new life that is around you. Live, love and immerse yourself in the now. Remember that you will probably still feel the energy from the previous full moon in Aries and we have another supermoon in November.  Recharge as often as you can.  Spend time at a local creek, or at the beach, ground yourself in preparation for the coming months.

Disclaimers:

* Beltane is a Fire Festival and we live in Australia at a period when bushfires can occur.  Please be responsible in any fire use.

Remember that you are the Priestess/Priest/Gothi/Gythia of your own rituals.  You create them how YOU feel they should go.  There is no right or wrong way to follow YOUR path, only what feels right or not-so-right.  It is fun to gather together with a few other like-minded souls and recreate the tradition of the God & Goddess, but never do anything that you feel uncomfortable with.  Remember that it must always be CONSENSUAL and if you do engage in consensual sex, make sure you practice safe sex.

This will be my final write-up for the Pagan Spiral as I am relocating to Victoria in early January and will be unable to get Litha out for you.  Over the last 6 months, the admins, have ensured that each piece that we wrote contained as many references as possible, even some that we did not end up using.  I suggest that you go through the lists and research for your own history and ritual for Litha.  Your path is all about you growing and learning, so please do not hold yourself back.

Many blessings and much prosperity for the coming season.

SouthernCrossHeathen

References

  1. Seasonal Dance – Janice Broch & Veronica MacLer (1993)
  2. Wheel of the Year – Pauline Campanelli (1992)
  3. Rituals of Celebration – Jane Meredith (2013)
  4. Llewellyn’s Witches Spell-a-day Almanac (2017)
  5. Dancing the Sacred Wheel – Frances Billinghurst (2012)
  6. Moontime Diary 2016 – Iris Dentenhof (2016)
  7. Lunar and Seasonal Diary 2016 – Stacy DeMarco(2016)
  8. Spheres of Light – http://spheresoflight.com.au/
  9. Wikipedia – https://en.wikipedia.org/
  10. About Religion – http://paganwiccan.about.com/
  11. Coven Life – https://covenlife.co
  12. Rune Wisdom – https://runewisdom.wordpress.com
  13. Beltaine – http://earthdna.co.za/
  14. Circle Sanctuary – https://www.circlesanctuary.org/
  15. Nordic Wiccan – http://nordicwiccan.blogspot.com.au/
  16. Wicca – Scott Cunnigham (2004)
  17. Llewellyn’s Witches Datebook (2017)
  18. Living Wicca – Scott Cunnigham (2011)
  19. List of Fertility Deities – http://www.wow.com/wiki/Fertility_deity

An Awakening of the Soul

With Walpurgis Night (Beltane) nearly upon us here in the Southern Hemisphere I am wondering how many others are feeling ‘different’.
Not different in a bad way but like there is fire within, like the veil has already began to slip away and we are now walking side by side with the other side.

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I know the Northern parts of the world are about to celebrate Samhain so they would be feeling this energy, or vibration too. I know within myself I have felt an awakening over the last month. My spirituality has taken a shift to a higher level.

 

 

Over the years I had let myself become stuck in society, I let bad relationships control and direct where my life went. I had forgotten who I was and what I was. I had also become a mother which I had forced myself to push my true self inside so deep that I thought I had lost me forever.

This last year has given me the strength and determination to bring myself back to the surface and well this new me is fucking awesome. I have never felt so alive before. I am learning to let go of the past that was holding me back, no not back, down.

spiritual-awakening-featured-01I had let myself become the victim of being the survivor. Pretended to be Superwoman when what I should have been is me.  Where is all of this new fire coming from? I have known for a long time but have, for no known reason, kept it hidden.

I moved house in February and that is when it all started, well it started Dec, but the fire started in February. It was an unusual heatwave right at the time I was moving (see… fire) and I started seeing strange things, yes, yes, I know now they were signs, and pretty damn obvious ones too, that I just kept blowing them off as other signs.

I have always been Thor’s girl, not in the God-spouse sense, more like he was always there when I needed him (or thought I needed him), like a big brother would be. Very platonic relationship, although he did ‘claim’ me a few times when I had attempted to wander to another deity.

Maybe that is why I had not considered another male trying to reach out to me.  Thor would have surely ‘claimed’ me again if that was the case right, right?

Skadi_by_Anna_NovikovaMaybe it was Skadi, I was yearning for the cold so badly, because there was so much fire in my life. Orange had become a favourite colour along side my ever trusty green. So I began researching her.

Elen of the Ways come through in my research after a dream of an Antlered Goddess within the forest. Deers and Stags were everywhere in my otherworldly life. There was a shift coming, you could feel it, my witchy friends had begun feeling it emanating from me for a while too.

Whilst on holiday (yes I will get to Day 2 soon I promise), I had a change cone over me so obvious, so strongly, so effortlessly, so… divinely… that I knew I needed to embrace what ever was coming. To just let it flow, from me and for me to just let myself flow with it. What ever it was…

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Supermoon In Aries

I found myself grounding a lot with

nature and water… so much water, I couldn’t get enough water it was ridiculous, not just physically but I needed to keep hydrated as I felt myself burning alive other wise. See… Fire… so much fire.

I had a few otherworldly experiences whilst away that I enjoyed and will keep to myself but I will share the most awakening experience, almost like a life epiphany experience.  I was at the beach on the way back home from our trip, it was my cousin, myself and our kids.  I was not going into the water, until I was sitting there and I felt a pull… I had to go and stand in the water… but I needed to bury my feet in the sand too… See water and grounding, always grounding.
I stood there, the waves (only small) washing back and forth around my legs… there was no more pull towards the ocean… only a desperate need for stillness… How the Hel are you meant to stand still in the waves? But I did, I was so still, so steadfast, I could see the water coming and going in slow motion, I could feel every single grain of sand surround my legs then whittle away as the waves returned to the deep once more. I could smell the salt in kawanabeachmy nose, I could feel the sticky salt air in my pores, I could feel the earth slowly rotating… What… Yes… the earth, Jord, Gaia, Mother… I could feel her, I was her, she was me.

I know it sounds absurd to those that are not spiritually connected to nature. But it happened, and it happened to me. It made me realise how small I am in the universe, yet how gigantically huge I am in the scheme of life. It was a true awakening, I fell in love all over again to my spirituality, to me, to life.

Then when I got home and relaxed, I could still feel the fire within, like a volcano, with its lava bubbling, just waiting to explode. Well the volcano did erupt. It erupted with such gusto that it felt like I have been reborn.

I was recouping after a great weekend catchup with one of my best friends, scrawling through Facebook when I came across a photo of a candle. (I am writing this on my mobile so will add links and photos later). It was a candle with an image of Freyr, standing in a forest with antlers on his head. There it was, there HE was, it was like a slap across the face… or arse in my case 😉 … This last 9 months has been about Freyr trying to connect, and with Thor’s permission obviously.

I needed to become a woman again, I needed to earn the fire within, I needed to earn the desire for life. Well I have, I have done the hard yards, and I have reached he pinnacle of my spiritual puberty to become the woman I am looking forward to releasing.

img_6297This does not mean I am letting go of my big brother, no, this just means my big brother has let go of my hand. He has shared my last teen dance with me and is now handing me over to the next stage of my spirituality. To experience life with new eyes and a new dedication to all that is.

This brings me back to the start of this post about the energy around us at the moment. There is a shift in the spiritual plane, an energy shift that has occurred. Is it just me or is it all?  Are you feeling the fire or are you feeling another vibration all together? Is it just this time of year or is there a shift happening, a stirring, a change, an otherworldly primal shift in the universe itself!

 

Let me know my fabulous crazies… or is it just me, going… well crazy?

Update: Spelling errors fixed.

Ingwaz.us was the supplier of the candle I saw:

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Riding the Stag

I know it has been a while since I blogged but there is a perfectly good explanation for it.

It is called LIFE… Yes I do have one, sometimes, ok on the odd occasion.  Well a lot has been happening in my life right now including learning to research and write up Dark, New and Full Moon Rituals as well as Celtic Sabbat Rituals for my local Pagan Community.  It is a really great learning tool and I am finding connections all along the way.

SthWheelYearCeltic Wheel of the Year for the Southern Hemisphere via Spheres of Light

So far I have (with the help of another Pagan) written up a Dark/New Moon Imbolc Ritual that was 4 pages (940 words) long.  I have written up a 5 page (1640 word) document on the August 2016 Full Moon which also includes a Lunar Eclipse and Moon in Aquarius.  I have nearly completed a September 2016 Full Moon Lunar Eclipse and also have started researching and writing up a document for Ostara that will include activities for kids too.

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A lot of the information is aimed at the general Pagan denomination in the local community as there are so many diverse paths within the group we what to cater for most and the few should be able to swap in their personal deity with ease.

I have had some of my writing published in a community magazine which made me giggle and blush with pride.  I also hunted down some of my old poetry and another short story that I started many years ago but then let life get in the way (again).

The front door was open and there was a smell of men’s cologne.  It was not a cheap cologne either, but one that I will remember forever.

I walked through to the living area.  It was there that I saw a strange man.  He was tall, slim and unshaven.  I did not go near him.  I walked on towards the kitchen where my mother laid in a puddle of bright red blood.  She had been shot in the head, like the man in the living area.

I could not move and I could not cry.  I just stood there in disbelief, knowing that I would never hear my mother’s sweet, reassuring voice saying ‘I love you’ again.
– Donna Astill

I have been busily coming up with ideas for our community here in the Southern Hemisphere as well as being active in other groups also.  I try to keep my blog as neutral as possible as I see no need for politics within the Asatru/Odinist community at all and besides this blog is about my journey not anyone else’s.

I was unwell thanks to the sharing caring nature of those in my house.  Why do germs like to spread only one or two at a time… Why not just go wham bam thank you ma’am on the whole town in one shot… Give the health dept heads something to scratch their heads over….

What else have I been up to since I blogged last?  Oh yes that’s right I attended ‘An Evening with Spirit’ with Alison Burman Psychic Medium.  It was a wonderful night and a great experience.  I had never attended an event like that before and I found Alison to be genuine and real (no sparkles and glitter, just her).  She did have a message for me which I will actually keep to myself, but there was words that only myself and the person communicating through/with Alison would know and no-one else could ever even guess.

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I did find that one person expressed during the interval that they did not believe Alison at all and it did irritate me as there was only limited tickets available and I know people who missed out.  Oh well there are always going to be sceptics that attend these events in the hope that they are convinced of something.

I attended an amazing friend’s birthday party, although as I was still recovering I opted to not celebrate with ethanol based beverages but stuck with water.  I revealed to mutual friends that I will be relocating at the beginning of 2017 but that is still a few months away yet.  I sat down and had a good conversation with a very new ex-anti-feminist who I had had a very heated debate with a few weeks earlier about feminism and the different levels of crazy some feminists can get.

The feminist agenda is not about equal rights for women. It is about a socialist, anti-family political movement that encourages women to leave their husbands, kill their children, practice witchcraft, destroy capitalism and become lesbians. – Pat Robertson

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http://www.birdwallpapers.com/crazy-eagle-wallpaper.html

I found a new therapist because really we all should be seeing a therapist of some sort as we are all pretty crazy at the end of the day.  I am really happy with her, she gets me, she is not interested in finding a ‘quick fix’ but working through the actual problems I have.  It is hard to find the right fit when you have been looking for over 2 decades and don’t pretend you’re not crazy yourself… You read my crazy ramblings don’t you 😉

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We’re not all Witches

I have attended three Meet & Greets for the local Pagan community in three separate locations around the region to meet some more of the community members which was great and I learnt a lot about other people’s beliefs and paths.  Remember the that not all ‘Witches are Pagan and not all Pagans are Witches’.  It was great to be able to get out of the house for the day and chat with like-minded people.

 

I know I sound like I don’t have time to stop and sleep, well I assure you I do and this morning was the first time in ages that I woke without feeling exhausted… How you ask?

Well, I had my very first Shamanic Journeying experience last night.  It was just an introduction class to help find your power animal but it was still an extraordinary experience.  I was fortunate that the other attendees failed to show so I had the Shaman all to myself to listen to and ask questions of.   It was a journey to the lower world to seek out my Power Animal.  It was a very personal journey and my animal was one that I never expected but it did make a huge amount of sense after thinking about the direction my spiritual path has been taking me on.

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A3 Stag Drawing – bexyboo16 (Deviantart)

My animal is the Stag and the connection I had was truly one that I will not forget.  It was surreal and breathtaking, calm and exhilarating all at once. To communicate with such a majestic being in that circumstance was… I just have no words that can truly express what it was like.  I met some other animals on my journey but none that spoke to me in such a way that made my head spin (in a good way) and my heart pound like my life was just starting.  I am so grateful to Misha for giving me the opportunity to experience that journey with her and for the conversation and insights we discussed afterwards.

 

If you have not yet found your Power Animal or had a Shamanic Journeying experience I highly recommend you find yourself a Shamanic Practitioner that you feel comfortable with and give yourself that experience.  You will not regret it and it will change you forever.

Well my crazies, I think I have rambled enough for one night and this was only meant to be a catch-up post so that you all know I am still alive and it isn’t some random bot re-blogging posts on my behalf… I am alive, totally freaking alive, and living life one foot after the other.

The purpose of Knowledge is to create a doorway which leads to the Truth
Misha Hoo